There was something unmanagingly deep about the way my dog sighed. The way he gave me a sidelong glance before doing so. The way he seemed to contemplate as I talked on the phone, knowing that he’d never understand. The way he perked and heaved himself up and bumbled over to me anyway when called, unquestioning in his trust.
That trust was total. It was earned by witnessing me – something so obviously, staggeringly capable – choosing to be gentle. That sigh communicated a distance between us vaster than the stars.
I'm Galactic Prime, number-ornate, dust-woven thermodynamicism incarnate. Bathed in radiation and wrapped up in garments. I see the nest of the hornet and wonder what God meant.
Words come out of my brain seemingly pre-ordained, a matrix of matter combining matters that make the rain feel phatter and fatten the lessons that implode anyway as each new day I am forced to realign my ideals with the actual, factual mess of this consciousness.
Energy spires into wells, conspires into cells, feels its way through the dark until the parts of it that survive the cannon-fodding of its own hapless nodding manage to thrive.
It's doing all of this to itself, and the crumbs it left when it knew it would forget have molded into dust.